Okay, it definitely took me over 31 days, BUT, I have finally reached the end of my Project 31. Thanks again to Mandy (check her out, she has an ADORABLE new baby girl) over at She Breathes Deeply for creating this inspiring project. I started my Project 31 journey on Tuesday, January 25th and am ironically ending it on a Tuesday some three months later. So, here we go. I am combining the last two posts into one:
Day 30 - Who is your role model as a woman? I've already blogged about two of my role models as a woman. You can read all about them here. SH & AF are two very special women in my life and I admire both of them dearly. They are awesome role models for any woman to aspire to be like them.
Day 31 - Write about your dreams and goals as a beautiful woman. I have SO many dreams and goals. :) I accomplished one of them last weekend, to become a wife. A lot of my dreams and goals have to do with finding a way to be able to work in a field I am passionate about. I have always been pulled towards animal non profits. I, of course, take lots of slack for it, and it's to be expected, BUT, I always say "to each their own" some people have an incredible passion for missions over seas, while others may be with children or homeless, mine happens to be animals. I'd love to find a way to be able to make a living doing what I love and I am working desperately to do so. In the mean time, I have been looking around for jobs either as an office manager or receptionist at a veterinarian clinic, or in other non profit fields such as my local chapter for the American Cancer Society. Non profit is what makes my heart smile the biggest and fundraising and making a difference is what I love. Ultimately as I said before, I'd love to be able to make a living helping animals, preferably from home. I'd love to one day (far far away from now) be able to be a SAHM (stay at home Mom). I believe being parents is the single most important job one will ever be blessed with. People give SAHM's a lot of grief, but I think what they do for their families is incredible and I'd love to one day be able to do that, if we could manage it financially. I'd never want to put all of the financial responsibility on my husband, which is why I am so determined to find a way to make what I am passionate about, profitable. Where there's a will, there's a way.
While becoming a mother, ideally a SAHM, is one of my dreams and goals for the distant future, it is also one of my biggest fears as a woman. I fear it because I do not know if my body will be able to hold up during pregnancy. Now, I have been told that I'd be surprised at what the human body is capable of as it goes through a pregnancy, but quite frankly, it scares me to the point of tears when I wonder whether or not I will be able to give my husband a biological child. I have SOOOO many problems going on with the Spondylolisthesis and severe scoliosis of my spine, that I just wonder if my back will be strong enough to support me plus baby one day. Tonight is a prime example. My lower back has been giving me severe issues lately. I went to the chiropractor earlier today, yet am still in pain. I came home from work, turned on the heating pad, took an advil PM, and crawled into bed which is where I am typing this blog from. It freaks me out thinking that one day if I am able to get pregnant, that it may be a high risk pregnancy with a lot of bed rest. I try not to think about it much, especially since I know my husband and I don't want kids for a few years, but it still pops into my head sporadically, especially on days like today when I have been dealing with nonstop stiffness and pain. I guess all I can do is continue to take care of myself, work out, eat right, strengthen the muscles of my back and neck, and just know that everything happens for a reason, and the important thing is that despite everything, I can see that I am totally blessed. And that helps me to remember that everything will be just fine :)
PS - if you'd like to start your own Project 31 (you can jump in at any time, there is no deadlines, look at ME, it took me over three MONTHS to complete mine!), just be sure to check out Mandy's blog (link above) and link back to her! The description of the project is below:
"What is "Project 31"? It is a collection of thoughts, ideas, and women who potray beauty in a inspired way. "Project 31" is you celebrating your God given beauty, and celebrating the beautiful women around you. The meaning behind the project is taken from this:
10 Who can find a virtuous wife?
For her worth is far above rubies.
11 The heart of her husband safely trusts her;
So he will have no lack of gain.
12 She does him good and not evil
All the days of her life.
13 She seeks wool and flax,
And willingly works with her hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
She brings her food from afar.
15 She also rises while it is yet night,
And provides food for her household,
And a portion for her maidservants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
From her profits she plants a vineyard.
17 She girds herself with strength,
And strengthens her arms.
18 She perceives that her merchandise is good,
And her lamp does not go out by night.
19 She stretches out her hands to the distaff,
And her hand holds the spindle.
20 She extends her hand to the poor,
Yes, she reaches out her hands to the needy.
21 She is not afraid of snow for her household,
For all her household is clothed with scarlet.
22 She makes tapestry for herself;
Her clothing is fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is known in the gates,
When he sits among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
And supplies sashes for the merchants.
25 Strength and honor are her clothing;
She shall rejoice in time to come.
26 She opens her mouth with wisdom,
And on her tongue is the law of kindness.
27 She watches over the ways of her household,
And does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children rise up and call her blessed;
Her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “ Many daughters have done well,
But you excel them all.”
30 Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing,
But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised.
31 Give her of the fruit of her hands,
And let her own works praise her in the gates.
Pretty good stuff, huh? Wanna join in? Here is the challenge... For 31 days, blog each day about things that celebrate your God given beauty, and the beauty of the women around you. I attatched a list below you can follow, or you can make up your own (please link back here, though).
Day 1. What does beauty mean to you?
Day 2. What makes you uniquely you?
Day 3. Who is someone you know who inspires beauty?
Day 4. Style 31. Post a pic of you in your favorite outfit.
Day 5. Write a blog thanking someone who has made your heart come alive.
Day 6. Jaded beauty. Has the world's definition of beauty ever jaded you?
Day 7. Write a blog to encourage another beautiful woman.
Day 8. Have a beauty secret (e.g. hair tip, make up tip)? Share, please!
Day 9. What virtues do you value in yourself?
Day 10. What is Jesus teaching you as a wife, mom, or friend? (Or just woman in general?)
Day 11. Post a recipe. Or if you don't cook, try a new recipe and write about how it turned out (pictures please!).
Day 12. Write about what wears you out as a woman.
Day 13. Write about something you would like to change about yourself for the better.
Day 14. Style 31. Post an outfit pic!
Day 15. Write to encourage a friend. Inspire her beauty.
Day 16. Write a letter to your daughter, or a young girl in your life. Tell her what beauty means.
Day 17. Write about 3 things that make you happy.
Day 18. Describe your personality.
Day 19. Write about your favorite comfort food (we are women- we ALL have comfort food!)
Day 20. Write about your job and why you love it or hate it.
Day 21. Write a letter to your husband to encourage him (or if you are single- your future husband.)
Day 22. What are some needs that need to be met in your community? Blog about how to extend your hand to those who need you.
Day 23. What are your strengths? What are your weaknesses?
Day 24. What is Jesus teaching you presently?
Day 25. Style 31. Post a pic of your favorite comfy clothes.
Day 26. What do you hope your grandchildren will say about you someday when you are gone?
Day 27. Write a blog to encourage someone and build their confidence!
Day 28. Write about your insecurities as a woman.
Day 29. Write about "a day in the life of me." (Pics are great!)
Day 30. Who is your role model as a woman?
Day 31. Write about your dreams and goals as a beautiful woman!
Ready? Grab the button and link up below! Let's encourage each other in this project by visiting each other blogs and leaving encouraging comments. Any questions or comments e-mail me at SheBreathesDeeply@gmail.com"